It's the beginning of a new year and like many people I have often made resolutions that I had good intentions of but never kept. However I find myself still making them year after year. Maybe it's because if I believe in the idea of starting over the resolution will actually come to fruition this time. Here's the a new year and starting over.
As many of you know a lot has happened to my poor body over a short amount of time. When we got married in 09 I was on Weight Watchers with Brian and we were doing ok on it. I was still overweight, but losing. Then we went on our Honeymoon to our all inclusive Mexico resort and that was the end of the losing weight experience. 6 short months later I found out I was pregnant with Andrew and gained 40 lbs during that pregnancy. I was determined to diet and get my weight under control once I finished breast feeding. Well when he turned 4 months I quit breast feeding. I found it way to hard to do and work full time, I just was'nt producing enough. Then two months later I was feeling weird again and yep, that's when we found out Brenden was on his way. I gained 15 lbs with Brenden and was heavier than I've ever been.
I determined that on Jan. 1st. I was going to make a change. Not only do I feel miserable but there are days that Im embarrassed to go out. I don't want to embarrass my husband and children to be seen with me based on the way I look. I'm not being a good role model either. I have an almost teenage son who watches me eat however I want and then not exercise or do anything about it. I owe it to him and myself to show him healthy is important. I've made a deal with him that when I get some of this weight off I want to start running and he wants to run with me to train for football. I also have a six year old daughter who wants me to help her with her dance and jump on the trampoline. I can't do those things with her right now. Then there are my two sweet babies. Should Andrew ever decide he's going to walk (ha ha) and in a few short months Brenden will be toddling around too, I want to run and chase them around. I can't do that right now either. Not effectively anyway. I need to be fit and healthy for me, but more importantly for my family.
I have determined that I am doing this. No matter what it takes. I'm not weighing in for my husband, my parents, or anyone else. I'm doing this for me!
I am hoping that if I chronicle my journey via this blog maybe I'll have more motivation to stay strong and on course. Perhaps also if I put it out there I've have more encouragement. Here's to 2012 and a new me!
** at today's posting I'm down 4.8 lbs. that's only 4 days of dieting too. :)
